Here I am
a center point in the vast mostly-imperceivable universe,
the only thing I have ever experienced being.
Biologists tell me that all day long my body’s cells die.
And most of my body is made of bacteria, which aren’t even me.
And half of my cells are from my mom and another half my dad.
Because I was born I caused changes.
I breathed and moved the ways I wanted.
I caused change.
I had change caused in me.
I let it happen, except for when I did not.
Where is the originality of life?
Is everything recreation?
What am I really? Am I what my physical body composes?
Is my physical body what I compose?
I became a scientist of life.
I held my breath to see what would happen.
I breathed again when it stopped being fun.
I observed the blood of my cut til it dried.
Sometimes when my tears fell, the salty drop ended up in my mouth.
I came to notice I exist in many small parts.
I am how I wanted to be, whether I wanted to or not. What power do I have?
I take a deep breath
Breathing in – I am alive
Breathing out – I inter-am
All there is, or seems to be, is
Inside of me
And outside of me
Here I am.
Am I transforming into the next thing I will become?
How does it work to let go, really go? They say it so easily.
When you let go the next door opens.
How to let go, when all I know is so true to me. Clinging on me like a second skin. This is me.
Here I am.
Scientist tells us that all cause has effect, everything is related to each other.
Why don’t I relate to you? Why it is so difficult to be with you? Who am I to be with you?
I take a deep breath
Breathing in – I am alive
Breathing out – I am here
With you
With all that is
In this vast now.
All directions are open to me
And I could exist in all of the directions.
Where do I step next?
Here I am.
The elements alive, within and without me,
Sometimes cycling predictably,
sometimes in hazardly chaos.
What do I go with?
What causes which effect?
I breathe.
I drop my attention from my mind into my feet, even though it doesn’t get there.
Here I am.
Here I am.
Poem Circle November 2022, Wheel of Life, Bridgehouse Bavorov
Nicole Hartley-Bradford, Gabriela Fagundes, Isabel Schrepel, Christine Dürschner, Leonhard Geupel, Martin Salanda
